It was clear to everyone last night that there was nothing Alecia Holden could have done to stay in the game of Survivor for another day after her Brawn tribe lost the immunity challenge. Not only were her tribe members berating her while she tried to cheer them on but they offered to vote her out right there on the spot immediately after. Still, she put a fight until the bitter end when her torch was unsurprisingly snuffed. Following her elimination, Alecia talked to RealityWanted about her struggle to gain respect from her team and stay in the game.

Right from the jump, you had people gunning to get you out. What was the disconnect between you and your tribe?
I think from day one, Scott and Jason just had these big egos. They stereotyped me because I was the smallest. They didn't give me a fair chance.

Do you feel like you were a weak link within the tribe?
Scott said he doesn't want anyone weak to align with but let me say this. No fresh water, nothing to eat, that makes our tribe weak. When Scott tried on the fire for 15 minutes and quit, he went and slept all day like it's Kindergarten nap time. I'm hot but I spent 5 hours to make that fire. When we had fire, we were able to eat and that benefited us. Everyone says, "Oh it took her 5 hours," and here's what you didn't see. We had a rainstorm the night before. Everything was so damp and retained so much moisture and the embers wouldn't light.

Some people felt you might have fared better on the Beauty tribe. Does that bother you or do you agree?
I think I might have had a chance of going further on the Beauty tribe but I was proud to be on the Brawn tribe. I didn't let them phase me.

How did you maintain your composure despite the way you were being treated?
In the first couple episodes, when they're being mean to me, it wasn't to my face. I didn't know everything that was being said. In episode 4, that's when I go to Scott to confront him on the situation. Scott and me, we were like David and Goliath. I'm going to stand up for myself, I'm not going to sit there and be pushed over.

What was your take on that reward challenge from last night's episode?
It was scary. I kind of thought that I was digging my own grave to bury myself. What you didn't see was that I was throwing up that whole morning from dehydration. The producers actually called medical on me after Caleb was pulled because I was shaking so bad.

After the immunity challenge, Scott and Jason told Jeff Probst that they would vote you out right there. What was going through your mind when they said that?
It was frustrating but there's this quote that I refer back to with them: Rudeness is a weak person's imitation of strength. They have these big egos and they wanted to look all badass trying to break me down. A lot of people felt bad for me but I was okay. I never cried, I was never in a corner feeling bad for myself. I'm laughing at these guys, I'm literally laughing. They're not good role models for their daughters and they're not good role models for how you should treat women.

What is your takeaway from Survivor now that you have had time to look back on it?
I didn't have a good experience on Survivor but I got to do something most people don't get to to do. It was eye opening and you realize how grateful you are. You hear about poverty but not having shelter or food, that's how people live every day in other countries. We get caught up in our everyday lives. That's why, in tribal, I said the experience can be worth more than the money. That's something you carry with you but I would love, love, love to back and play again.

Survivor airs Wednesdays at 8/7c on CBS.

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